Things I miss about my 20’s:

  • The ability to function with little or no sleep.
  • Always having plans on the weekends.
  • Being okay with having a meaningless job.
  • Having that fresh, no makeup needed skin.
  • Getting good grades while putting forth very little effort.
  • “Perkiness”
  • Doing crazy stupid things without much concern for consequences.
  • No pressure from anyone to get married or have kids.
  • Having all your friends in the same city or state.
  • Living in downtown Iowa City.

Things I don’t miss about my 20’s:

  • DRAMA!
  • Not caring about what I should be learning.
  • Fear of not fitting in.
  • Consequences of doing (or being an accomplice to) crazy stupid things.
  • Commitment Issues.
  • Not knowing who your real friends are.
  • The hangover from having plans every weekend.
  • Being wasteful with most things, especially money.
  • Living on PB&J and ramen, or just eating at work until all bills have been paid.
  • Dealing with or worrying about all the BS because you think you have to.
  • Living in downtown Iowa City.

I have more than twice the amount of plants started than I need for a great garden this year, and I keep planting more!  This all started a few weeks ago when everyone is supposed to start their garden plants for the summer so the plants are nice and hardy by the time they are supposed to be planted.  Then a backup is planted just in case you have a late frost, or your garden gets flooded, or your cat eats or lays on top of your original plant.  It all makes sense except for the part where I plant so many tomato plants that I could fill my vegetable garden with tomatoes alone and still have a few plants to spare!

This Midwest winter keeps wanting to hang on.  Spring peaks through just for a sec and gives us a taste of what we are craving, and then it’s just as quickly taken away.  I’ve heard that we might not get much of a Spring at all.  That we might transition from the sort of cold to the very hot.  I’ve heard that it might flood again, and I heard that it might not.

I felt the need to blog, but feel that I barely have a creative bone left in my body.  I feel that if I keep planting things, Spring will come a little more quickly.  I feel that time wizzes by too quickly and time stands still when we are waiting for something.  I feel that it is dangerous to blog while drinking, especially if you’re a light weight like me;)

As I am typing this the wind it howling through my old, old house and I think we couldn’t be further from Spring. And then I remember my plants, my seedlings-all the wonderfulness that is waiting.

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“Here’s to the bright New Year, and a fond farewell to the old; here’s to the things that are yet to come, and to the memories that we hold.”
–Anonymous

I’m not sure who wrote that.  Do you?  I guess it doesn’t really matter, though it’s fitting for today, New Year’s Eve.

As this day approaches I find myself wondering, “Where did the time go?…This year really went by quickly.”  I find myself reflecting on the good and bad of the past year, maybe going back even further.  And though the New Year isn’t trully a clean slate, I like to think that it allows me some extra room for improvement.

2008 was a great year!  Without going into too great of detail I’d like to list a few of the little and big things that I saw this year…

  • In February I celebrated the end of my 20’s and began a new decade in my life. One of many decades I hope.  My cousin celebrated the big 3-0 in May, and my best friend found 30 in September.  31, here we come!
  • I have a few friends who had to experience some truly heartbreaking things.  Without going into detail about either of these events I just wish to share that I often think of these people (though I rarely show it) and send my wishes for hope and happiness on a daily basis to all of them.
  • I have a few friends who welcomed new members to their families, and a couple who found out that their family will be growing early next year.
  • On a whim I enrolled in some classes again.  In my old age <wink, wink> I’ve come to realize that I’m happiest when I’m learning.  I also put my name on the waiting list for a Surgical program that seemed interesting to me, and amazingly my name came up on the list a year earlier than it should have.  I think this is real proof that ALL things happen for a reason.  And, MA!  I’m getting straight A’s!
  • That flood!  Gosh, that flood sucked!  I hope the Midwest never sees another flood that bad.
  • We watched the Olympics and a guy, who might literally be part fish, do some pretty amazing things.
  • Obama!  …nuff said.

I know there’s more.  Lot’s more!  But I’m working on my long winded-ness, and I still have more to write.

I’m looking forward to this new year, 2009, as an exciting new journey.  I know we will all experience some pretty tremendous things (hopefully all good).

I try not to make a list of resolutions because I always feel that if I do I will jinx myself, and none of these things will come true.  Ridiculous, I know.  Instead of a list of things I hope to resolve I wish to list a few things that I look forward to in the new year, maybe a few hopes.  Does that make sense?

  • I look forward to starting my new program & to find out if this was what I was meant to do.
  • I look forward to a far better growing season than we had last year.  Maybe this year my hops will have established themselves enough to produce some flowers, and maybe it won’t be so damp.
  • I look forward to more good times with friends and family, and hearing more good news from them all.
  • I look forward to all of those road races I normally do every year, and hope to maybe add a few more.
  • I hope to take more from life and to not just live it, but love it.  All of it!

Farewell, 2008!  It’s been an exciting and extraordinary year.

I’ll leave you with one more quote:

“Be always at war with your vices, at peace with your neighbors, and let each new year find you a better man.”  (or woman…hehe!) –Benjamin Franklin

Cheers!

-H

I think I’m becoming more comfortable with my weirdness, or maybe I’ve just stopped caring. What I mean by weird [today] is the random, and most often unusual, things that pop into my head at any given moment, when any given thing happens at that particular moment. These thoughts usually prompt me to act, but lately I don’t act, opting to sit there instead and think some more.

For example, as I was sitting here thinking of something to write I saw a baby spider crawling across a piece of paper I have lying on the floor. I thought to myself, “What an odd place for a tiny, baby spider to be crawling at this time of day”. I know it doesn’t make sense. I was thinking it looked red, kind of the way a spider mite looks, but it couldn’t be because spider mites are much smaller than that and are usually outside in a sunny crack. I thought that baby spiders are my favorite kind of spider. Then I was thinking that if I didn’t do something about it, it would just get bigger, becoming one of the larger spiders that I don’t like. I was thinking that if I didn’t kill it, it would get bigger and crawl into my mouth at night, and I would swallow it…I did nothing.

Maybe I just couldn’t think of anything to write about today.

H